My boyfriend bought himself a writing prompt titled “3000 Questions About Me”, which he hasn’t started on yet. So I decided to answer all 3000 questions myself.
I. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Having a family of my own. The joy of marrying the perfect guy, the happiness of finding out I’m pregnant with our first child, taking care and watching my child grow up with the man I married then growing old with the one and only man I have been through with it all.
II. What is your greatest fear?
Finally having a family but gets cheated on, files for divorce and having to fight for the custody of our child/children. I really am praying for a happy marriage without talks or thoughts of getting a divorce.
III. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Inability to express my thoughts properly. My whole life, my opinions never mattered especially in the family. No matter what I say, it’s never enough or it’s never taken into consideration, being told I’m stupid or I talk nonsense. It latched onto me as I grew up, to the point that I want to say something in regards to something someone said but scared of being judged or brushed off, I choose not to say anything anymore.
IV. What is your greatest extravagance?
I spend too much on gadgets. Whenever an apple iphone gets released, I would always upgrade my phone even if I just got my current phone half a year ago. I am also planning on upgrading my Macbook Air to a 15 inch Macbook Pro when I get back to Pittsburgh just because. I bought an Apple Watch which I didn’t really need since I am not always out of my house so there’s no point. I just like new stuffs and I can’t help it. Sue me.
V. What is your current state of mind?
Satisfied. I finally found the man of my life. The man I will marry and have kids with. The perfect man for me. I have been through rough and bad relationships and I almost gave up and thought that I would just get into random relationships just so I won’t be alone but after taking a huge risk, I finally found the right man. I’m definitely satisfied after everything he has done for me, meeting his family and most especially, seeing the look on his face when his mother would ask a kiss from me when we drop her off from work and me doing so. It’s pure love and happiness and I’m satisfied with that. I couldn’t ask for more.
VI. What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Honesty for me is the most overrated virtue. We always thought that doing or saying something honest is the best thing to do and sometimes we don’t even think about what other people could feel or say just to make ourselves feel better because we said the “truth”. Not all the time it’s good to be honest, sometimes we have to consider the place, time and situation because we blurt out things that could either hurt the person we are talking to or get into trouble just because we think Honesty is the best Policy.
VII. On what occasion do you lie?
Whenever something is bothering me. Especially in relationships after my toxic relationship where I can’t say something without that ex saying I’m wrong or whatever. Ever since then, I would always keep my feelings to myself. If my current boyfriend says or does something that bothered me, I would just look past it, brush it off and try to put it at the back of my mind. But he would always tell me that I need to tell him if he did something wrong so it can be fixed and it won’t develop into a grudge after some time, which I completely understand. I am still in the process of redeeming myself so maybe I’ll get there someday.
VIII. What do you dislike about your appearance?
I am not going to be a saint and say something like this is how God made me blah blah blah. Being surrounded by pretty girls, not the plastic surgery girls but the natural ones, makes me so insecure and jealous. Sometimes, I would wish I was pretty like them, where I can dress up and pose and not looking like a potato being dried up in the sun for later use. But I’m glad I have a boyfriend that really loves how I look like even when I forget to clean up my face at night and wake up with eyeliner smudged under my eyes, saying I’m so beautiful and he loves me so much.
IX. Which living person do you despise?
Does it have to have a name? Well, I have a lot of people I despise but in general, I hate liars. Honestly, yes I am a quiet person and I try to blend in with the wallpaper but when I hear someone saying lies when we both know the real truth, it bothers me so much that I would eventually try to set them right. As long as I know I’m on the correct side of the field, I would fight back but if I knew I was wrong, I would admit it and won’t cause trouble furthermore.
X. What is the quality you most like in a man?
Understanding. I have a lot of problems, emotionally. I tend to overthink, overreact, over-worry (if that is even a word), I tend to feel anything two times more or even ten times more than a normal person. My boyfriend understood that unlike those before him. He knows that I worry when he’s out for work or good time so he would always update me where he is and what he’s doing and what time he’s going home. He know that I overthink, having failed relationships before, he knew that I would always say stuffs like he would leave me eventually and he would grow tired of me. We had that kind of conversation multiple times but he never grew tired of reassuring me everytime, never getting annoyed no matter how many times he says it to me. That’s what I love most about him. He understands me neediness, my clingyness, my weaknesses and he would do everything to satisfy it.
That’s it for now. I’ll be posting all 3000 questions by parts, depending on my mood on how many questions per post I feel like doing. For now, I’m done with 10.